Photo taken at Geylang

Dear Diary,

DAC makan Session...those in the same table..ha...Look like wedding photo right...Ya..SO cock...*Blah*

DAC's Makan trip

Dear Diary,

Oopz...my mobile rang!!! It's Eileen popping me an SMS...Oooo here comes Shu Chang's....Shit...Didn't we cancel the 9.30am "meeting" for M464??? Damned...I'm now stuck outside with my Daddy...settling some HDB stuff...

Anyway..reach campus LATE!!!!

Yes, i'm LATE AGAIN.... LOLZ

All's well today, attended all classes...then prepared to go for the DAC's makan trip... We going to Chinatown and Geyland to eat!!!

Yippee... I'm the advance party, so went down with shiyang, Andy and Yeowhan....
I Kana some shit alone the way....since i'm the one that made the orders prehand, the vendor's biz too good...so give me some "shit..... Was pissed....but then again..the entire trip ended perfectly in "Geyland".

I like the "dou jiang you tiao"...haha...

Throughout the trip, i was entertained by Robin and Shiyang's joke..ha...they even fill me with some interesthing "knowledge" abt the moive in Chinatown... *Wink*

The day ended with the "17inch joke...." damit...i'm made the story of the joke again....and all "THANKS" to Zhiping...Make me so malu..Hahah....

I was dead bush, when the entire thingy end...Phew....What a day....It was all fun i guess...eaten quite a bit... (3 bowls of claypot rice-cuz we over ordered, then 1 "zi ma hu", 1 "tian ji zhou" and i "dou jiang you tiao"... power hor..lolz)

Pen off....

*Ponder*

Dear Diary,

Hmm...suddenly recall a chat i had with Esjay...he asked what's the purpose of writing a blog? as in what do you really wanna want out of ur blog, what is the objective? Some people's blog are informative, some are jokes bla bla bla...

I ponder for awhile...I never thought of the objective. Seriously, never. It never come across to start this blog thingy at all (though i'm aware of the existence long ago), until my buddies are posted out to work. I didn't wanna lose in touch with them. I mean at least they are still updated with my life, they can still "share" my happiness, sorrow, anger...bla bla...though it's different...but at least not complete "CUT" and lost of news...

I lost a best childhood fren before.. Benjamin... my "soulmate" when we were still young..ha..
I wonder where is he now...is he still in Canada? or has he come back to Singapore...

Anyway...I guess my blog are just updates about myself to my buddies and frenz, of course i cant stop anyone else from reading..ha...well, it's my "online" diary...well, my blog may not bve interesting or informative but they are all truthful facts, thoughts and feelings...
Nothing but the TRUTH from me...

Ok..i beta go study now...lots of things to do...

Argh....Terrible day

Dear Diary,

Argh....how bad can a bad day be....

Damned...woke up late and missed my M464 lecture. First time i missed the morning lecture this semester...Argh...That's frustrating!!!

Then on my way rushing to the school, my slipper strips broke..WTF..so i decided to walk back home to changed since all the stores are not open yet at this hour... so i "crippled" back....

Then..out of the blue i tripped..and "Ba", I fell and Wooo...i "Bang" right onto another guy...
SMACK right onto his chest....

So MALU!!!!!

Damn..the worst thing is he saw tt i'm carrying alot of stuff, so he offer to carry my laptop and accompany me to buy another slipper in the market..

So peisai....!!!!

then my bus to campus broke down!!

Then reach school realised i brought wrong log book...cant do my M464 during the break,,,damn...forgot to bring the M462 notes to copy the hints i've missed days back...

Everything is not going right...
Argh..S**t man..

Ha..finally...my BIG brother come online

Dear Diary,

"Uho" my MSN message poped out a message and was blinking in the task bar as i was doing my FYP..

WHO can it be at this hour??? 2am...

Oooo..It was my buddy..my "BIG Brother" Acez...ha..Finally he comes online...i manage to chat to Hengyong..but not Acez since he left for France..10 days ago...ha..(bearly 2wks..) though he did SMS me twice..send his greetings from France...Ha...very sweet of him hor...ha o maybe he was too bored...lolz..ok lar Good Buddy indeed...Never forget me..this little gal here...Worth my effort of being nice to him after all..Wahaha..

He's so poor thing...he claimed that it -4 degrees..and he's freezing cold...hiding under his thick comforter in his Hotel...he says he's dying...only have biscuit for his dinner (it was 7pm in France and he just knock off)...SO chaim....to think he's quite a "big eater" ..ha...he kept complaining...Bla bla...Ooo...and his old injury...he's back...he says it's hurting again..badly...

OOoo..So poor thing hor...hear oredi oso cant help but worry for him... At least our Dear hengyong seems a little better off...though i could see that he lost some weight through the web cam...I understand he has got problem getting use to the food in Shanghi...(Too salty, too oily...) and worst...he takes vegeterian food on the 1st and 15th of lunuar month...he says he cant really find vegterarian food there....but then again...he would be back on the 4th night flight...wld reach on the 5th...Yippee..

Haiz...wonder how Acez is now...so chaim him...ha....hopefully he can find a French Babe to mssage for him...loolz

wah....was it 5am oredi..or was it 3am..hw long have we chatted...ha...my eyes blur liao....

Haiz

Dear Diary,

*Ring* .....*RIng*...*Ring*
My personal room number ring...I feel asleep doing FYP (ha..my bed is "joint" to my desk..)
I wonder who...not many people have the number except my buddies and best frenz..

Anyway, it was my best fren, Eileen, she called to say her M454 apeal fail...Damn the system...Though we expected this wld happen, I expected her to be upset...I didnt know how to console her though...but one think i know...at least she don't feel "stuck" and she don't have to study the quiz next week as well as the attend some 8.30am class...Hope she'll get over this....I'm sure she can..she always recover faster from hurt faster than me...she's a strong girl..

I'm the weaker party when it comes to emotions...I'm the more vunerable one...

Then we talked abt the M463 tutorial she missed..haha..she wanna borrow my tutorial..lolz..i told her hw bad the tutorial was...no one understands what the tutor talking abt...not because the tutor's not good but this time the tutor don't understand or rather dunno how to solve too. (I asked a few other...their tutors too...stupid lecturer...set this kind of qn)

This tutor of mine is actually very good, he usually run through the concept and explain the theory behind the question then work the qn on the spot step by step, then tell us hw to go abt solving and tell us what formulaes are impt, but today he jus read from the lecturer's solution (he claim) and got stuck few times...think he dun understand the tutorial question the lecturer set..ha...

Can u imagine how bad....First time i so tension...don't understand in his class...I always go back very relaz...but not this time...
STRESSED>.....

Dear Diary,

That's what frenz are for....

LOooong Day

Dear Diary,

Hmmm...so proud of my blog...haha...very pleased with myself..all the nice effect added in..the pictures...the manquee...and a SWeeeeet template...SOooo GIRL hor...abit unlike me though...hahahaha

well..let's see..today...is a long long day....i wasn't feeling too well in the first place....having headache.. plus the rashes that "crawl" all over my body.....Oooh Gosh....Yeew... it's jus SOoo itchy....Damn it... anyway...i wasn't feeling too well all over...here pain there pain...too weak too walk...just feel like dying...argh...

It was HELL!!!!

Then...force myself to study for my M455 quiz.....I can hardly conc....cuz of all the discomfort...then again...I study over the weakend oredi...nonetheless...i got it through...should be able to pass...but WTF...i forgot a formulae....Argh...SHIT man.,... I even wrote on paper during revision n derive it...how can it slipped off my mind...F**k...

Anyway....when i was checking my NTU email which i have not checked for ages....To my HORROR, i receved quite a number of URGENT email and WARNINGs...saying that i have not submitted my FYP confirmation damn..and i'm kinda way past the deadline....SHIT!!!!!! As if my FYP prof can read my mind...he sms me jus when i was reading...He souded angry...real Angry...I've never hear him so fierce before....I sure Pissed him off...

Anyway...I dropped him an SMS to apologised..then i went to get all things done...print the form, wrote a letter to apologised to the office people etc etc...then went to meet prof...First thing i said before he could open his mouth is " Prof, I'm SOooo Sooo Sorry!!!" then gave him my most sincere and pathetic look....Ha...think that works...(Hey, I'm really sincere though k...I get everything ready, properly done first then go...haha)..anyway, it's misunderstanding....
Happy ending...

O..then here comes the HAPPY part of the day....though i was exhausted....I agree to meet up my bestest sister...Ying ying...she came to campus to meet up for dinner....I've always got endless chat with her....I can alway trust her and pour my heart out w/o any fear... In front of her, there's no such things as being shameful..so werid huh....She's merely 1yr older than me...but her thinking is so mature ad grown up...I always feel so SMmall in front of her...She always take care of me like a little sister...Wish i can give her sensible advice the way she give me...I'm so "lan" ...always my buddies giving me support...when wld the day come where i can give them help as much as they do for me,,,

I care alot ..alot of ow people think of me...how others think of me...really...but in front of my buddies...my sisters...there's nothing i'm scared of..ha...I can be ME, myself... I feel so relaxed talking to her...the funniest thing is we are so different in character...yet we click well...That's what i call "Opposite attracts"...Though i have alot of frenz....i'm v particular abt selecting wat i call best frenz.... buddies...and who igo out with...and i'm proud to show off my "Jolynn sister" haha...

WOooo before i forget...she treated my Dinner today...a "fattening KFC meal" hahaha.....that was for my "BELATED BELATED birthday present".. Wahaha Thanks..

**Muacks!!!!**

Errr...Wat happen

Dear Diary,

Wat happen to me...Rashes all over...SOooo itchy....
Every my eyes are swollen...damned...Bad sign...tml got quiz.....argh...

Damn it....

Bad day...
I'm Soooo Stress....

life sux

Dear Diary,

Argh.....I wonder why...I'm SOoooo SOooo BORED!!!! It's 4 am and i cant get to bed....

Life Really SUX!!!!!

SO many things to do yet so bored....no mood to do at all..HAve got M455 Test on Monday...and got my FYP to rushed and finish...yet...I have no moltivation to do anything...jus feel like stoning...stare into blank space....do nothing....

Alot of frenz asked me out today...but i jus don't feel like going out with them...sometimes...you just don't wanna "waste" ur time with them...(I mean if gng out with frenz u don't click, it's so tiring...U have to entertain them, urself..U'll not be at ease...U can't be urself..nonetheless..it's kind of them to ask me out) yet i'm bored..ha...I'm contridicting myself...

Maybe i lost my aim in life...maybe...I see no point in it....there were no focus...I lost all the moltivation and encouragement.....

Frenz...everyone have countless of them...I bet i have too...countless fren...much more than my Phonelist can contain...I used to be such a lucky girl...One that most people wld envy...I got tons and tons of frenz...good frenz, best frenz..buddies with me...I have got a Happy Family...I have everything I want..the sun, the moon, the wind...at my wish...I dont have to worry abt anything ....Money, studies, frenz, love, Happines..I have it all.... But good things never last....

I learn the fact that eveyrthing Happens for a reason...what we get in return may not be tangible...but why me going through so much...why do i have to go trough the hardest way..others don't...Why give me everything...then reap everything away from me...It's so cruel...It's Torture...All i asked for is a simple life...I dont need to be a RICH gal, i don't have to be in DEAN's list.....

I just want to be HAPPY...

I'm not Happy now...there are so many things to worry about...

Hmm..wonder why i get so sentimental and emotional today....but i just cant concetrate....

I wish...I wish...i can just let go of everything.. everything i mean...all the burden...all the worries...I wish i can be a blank white sheet...where i can re-write my story of life....

Dear Diary,

Nice flowers huh? Flowers that will melt all girls heart...Too bad it's yellow lily...think white Lily would be nicer right?...ha..

Just one week ago...

Dear Diary,

One week ago...today...Acez..My buddy left.... the same time...the same flight...Air france...same place...Now...It's another of my best fren...Evarn...

My buddiest left...one by one..Khem Leng, Cass, Heng Yong, Acez...then my best frens....now Evarn...then Ck oso leaving soon...Everyone..one my one...I felt so lonely suddenly...I used to have so many frenz...so many...great frenz..felt so happy then...it seems that all the good times has coming to an end...

The only fortunate thing ..the only bonus is that i still have Eileen and a few other close frenz for company in campus...but i know once we graduate...things would be different...but for now..i treasure all the time i have in campus...the only reason...i wanna "stay" in NTU...ha...sometimes i really dont feel like going home...haha....

Haiz...I know i'll miss Evarn, He has always been my "boss", a great adviser in terms of studies and work...He's jus this "big shot" in school...who knows all the dean...the profs...all the top people..he's that influential...that big shot.. that powerful!!!!

He's been a great help to me whenever i have problem..my best fren...(not because he can help e...but i can communicate to him...tell him things..trust him...)..I know I'm always the little gl in his eyes...he has alway given me alot of support...though we seldom meet up...cuz this man is so busy..ha...but he wld often send his regards despite his busy schedule...

I've always treasure this friendship...

Now that he's leaving..suddenly i feel so sad...Emotions just whelm up...wish we all cld have meet up more often...now...dunno when then can meet liao....

Unfortunately i cant sent him off today...n he has no time to meet up with me before he leave cuz the notice was too short...one of my regrets...Hope he don't blame me for it...but i know he can understand....

Take care my fren...Keep In touch!!!
Voyage de Bon (Bon Voyage).....and Amis Pour toujours (Friends Forever)

Ciao....

Dear Diary,

For all my dear frenz and buddies out there...all of u have been special....Each and everyone of you plays an IMPORTANT role in my life even if u didn't realise...THANKS for everything.... 

So mad

Dear Diary,

I'm so mad....I cant stand it....

How can anyone jus gave away your frens number to another person....I cant write and explain here cuz the person might read this....and i dont wan to make my sister angry or in a difficult position...so i shall not memtion names...but the fact that my "sister's" mobile was given away by this person A to Person B just to return a favor to B makes me Mad....What excused is that? so dumb....sound so fake...

How can anyone be so rude...giving away your frenz number...without the person's permission...What's the point of saying sorry after that? it only makes A so hypcrite...

Saw him just now....he smiled to me...damn...feel like gng over and give him 2 tight slap on behalf of my victim sister....

I though he was a nice guy....even suggested my "sister" to consider him...damn him...ask him to eat shit lar...So childish....How can anyone..not think of the consequence before doing anything....To think he's older than me... The thought of his action makes my blood boil....
Is that an action of a gentlement...???!!

So scary....U really cant judge a person by his looks man...

Damned I fell

Dear Diary,

Shit.....This is going to be the "joke" of the year....I fell down in school canteen today....

My knees were not very strong....I was climbing stairs....to go for lecture after daddy drop me at Cantten A...I was carrying my 2.7kg notebook....up the stairs i go...On the second steps...my flip flop lost is friction against the wet stairs the uncle just wipped...and "Bang" i almost went flat...ok..notthat bad..rather i was in a kneeling p[osition..both my knee cap hit the ages of the stairs...

The acute pain shot right up my nerves...but i still try to stand up as fast as possible..cuz i fell at the cantten stairs...where everyone was having breakfast...I bet alot of people saw mr...Damn it...So malu...so paisei...but wat to do...Now my knees aching like hell...n the pain killer the doc gave dont really help...argh...

Poor Eileen

Dear Diary,

Poor Gal...My best fren Eileen....Haiz...she met the misfortunte i met...similar rather

I had always been a victim of the NTU management system...now...she face the same problem...we are both victims...but we were not the only ones...there are hundreds and thousands of victims out there that cant have their sorrow poured out...

She has gotten Dengue on her last paper for M454. Due to her illness, she flung the paper unfortunately...it was a borderline fail... Some might wonder why she dont jus take an MC and miss the paper? but the problem with NTU system is that if any paper is mnissed even if u are really sick, you will have to "retake" the entire module the following semester...NO SUB paper at all...Eileen cant afford to fail any so i can understand why she went for the paper anyway despite her half concious condition...I knew she studied hard for the paper...

Anyway...the story continues...she try to appeal to the vice dean as advice by the "Bo Tak" sub dean to pass her since it was a borderline fail considering her illness condition on the exam day itself. She did and paid for the appeal...Yes mind you we have to pay for the appeal...which 99.99999% DONT help at all...

Wks passed...everyone got their review results.... (Obviously not successful..they just sent you this stupid Computer generated email), but Eileen didnt get hers...she waited...called up the "Bo tak dean"...n was asked to wait..

Till the last day for add-drop of modules..she went ard to look for the secretary of the vice dean, n found out tt the lady didnt submit her appeal for reveiw and her letter to the vice dean at all...OMG how can such things happen...n the o tak asked my fren to drop the one module..which means she wld have to retain for one more sem...pay another 2.7K!!!!

What is the world coming to.... What kind of educators are they, i question??They are not FIT!!! On one hand the president says he wld listen to the students comments....so "they did "listen"...listen with ear block...listen but no actions done... Aren't they supposed to help students? Yet upon making stupid mistakes like this, the being the role models of the students make the students pay for the their consequence when the students are INNOCCENT!! In order to make more money, they make waste the students youth. time..and future....Do they know what they are doing ??? Or have MONEY $$$ Blind their concious, their eyes... Is there justice?

What can helpless students like us do?? God, help... We are the victims...

Stupid China server

Dear Diary,

I was so disappoined...Utterly disappointed...

The main purpose of setting this blog thingy is to "update" my 2 dearest buddies posted out faraway for work....One in Shanghai & the other in France. I wanted to keep them posted of my daily actitvities..share with them my happiness, joy, anger and sorrow...Finally when get this entire blogthingy set up.."decorate" nicely...Damned...my buddy in Shaghai says he cant access to my page at all....Think the China Server kinda block it or something...Argh.....

I thought internet suppose to be borderless??!!

Now wondering if Acez in France can read....

Nonetheless, my dear buddy hengyong did the sweetest thing...he got his gf Felicia to read to him what i have written in the blog....he even get her to describe to him...So touched i was.... What more can you ask for from a wonderful buddy like him...

He knew i was upset...and he even drop me an sms all the way from Shanghai... it may not mean anything to anyone out there...but to me it's SPECIAL.. it's the thought! It's his thoughts of treasuring this friendship that makes the SMS special...his encouragement...

If there's anyone that marks my success in future..he is certainly one of them....

Thanks BUDDY!

Present NEVER sent out...

Dear Diary,

This thingy Suppoedly made for my buddy Acez...but then it didn't turn out too well..and cant really dry...so end up in my cupboard now...Haha.. shared with Siek yen and all a Peirre Cardin belt for him instead..Hope he likes it...haha..Don't like oso muz wear..haha..it's all our "sin yi" hee...

My buddy Acez left...

Dear Diary,

Me & Jimmy set off at 8.45pm from Clementi...We reached the air port by ard 9.05pm...we laze ard...the "pig" still havent arrive..anyway..we are still early...we waited...

Jimmy went to eat his dinner at the "Kopi Thiam".....he ate Laksa...yum...anyway...we waited & waited....I sms Acez...he called back to say he was jus on his way would only reached in another 20 to 30mins time...and it was 10pm already...his flight is 11.30pm and he's supposed to report 2 hrs in advance...OMG he's taking his own sweet time...My dear fren chengli...ha...never change...the "Late King" ha...

When he finally arrived...I was just get to emotional...We didn't really have the time to chat..just..there were other people ard and he's already late...he took photos with everyone..shake everyone's hand...

When he finally came over....and say take care with a hug...my tears jus swell up....tears jus rolled down...Maybe I'm too emotional...but I cant believe in jus months...I have been sending my buddies away...Everyone's leaving me...

He walked to the departure gate...and waved goodbye to everyone...gave those ard a last handshake...I stood v far behind...I know i'll be very upset...I just burst into tears...if i go close...my tears have already started to flood my eyes...he did mouthed take care again to us and left.....My vision blurred......

Thank god Ying ying was ard...I wld not be able to take it..if i had came alone..My memory of the moment Hengyong let crawled back...I was equally upset...I hate seeing my bestest buddies all leaving me...HATE it...

I went back to the car with Jimmy so tt Jimmy can pick his stuff from my car...On my way back to meet up with Ying and the rest....Chengli called...yes my dear buddy called me on the plane...I was moved...so touched...I can even hear someone asking for his passport...he actually called to see i was alright...ha...Ok..i'm a cry baby..I cried again...while walking through the people...I was so touched i guess....

Over the years...I've grown so attached to all of them...they are jus like my brothers...my big brothers...sometimes...even beta...always there for me...my ups and downs...Acez....the one I called Brother all the time...Ha..leaving me...How can i not be upset...no doubt he was the one that always "bully" me the most.... Suddenly i feel boring...life without his "bullying" is quiet and boring...

I miss Hengyong's "Suaning" too...and guess his word of encouragement always....

14th Jan..I'll remember this day!!! 4yrs....but i hope to see him back soon....hopefully by next CNY.....I know I'll miss him...Miss Hengyong too... Miss them lots and lots...

Je frère de MLLE YOU!!! (I'll MISS You brothers!!!)

Coding what Ck says" weeks without u is ok; Months without you is boring; a year u is hell; 4 yrs w/o u is I cant do w/o u"...of course u & Hengyong...I never Bias one.. hahaha....Jimmy in Singapore..so o need to miss...haha..

Acez, Tout le meilleur en France! (All the best in France) & Jia you!

Henh yong you too!!!!

The M464 Tutor

Dear Diary,

O boy...the lesson jus ended....

That tutor is SOooooo Demanding.....He gave a LOoong Introduction about himself...telling us how experience he is...how senior..bla bla bla....

Then he gave another "boring" history of the module...which is not quite related..I think...Or rather not of much use to us....

Anyway..then he talked abt the expectations...he's Super demanding..Expect alot from us....

Fortunately...he allow us to do in a group of 5 people..so now our members other than me, Eileen and Alan we also have Shu Chang & Zhi Ping...Coolz!! hope er can do wonders....

Yippee...I beta go start the reseach on the module...

Tonight i sure no mood to do research liao...haiz....my buddy Acez is leaving tonight....

Dear Diary,

Jus got the Naruto Pics from a Naruto Craze fren..haha..

Pretty nice...tout I'll share it on the website...Hhee..Will tell u more abt this animae in future..cuz the show is still going on..hahaa.... Now stuck cuz my frenz all cant D/L so i cant watch too....nvm..can read the comic book..haha..

Dear Diary,

Yes!!! KakaShi is my Fav one in the entire animae...he may not be the most powerful...ha...He's the teacher of Naruto, Sasukae & Sakura... 

Dear Diary,

The 3 Main Role 

Dear Diary,

Kakashi & Sasukae. 

A good & Bad Day...

Dear Diary,

"Uh O"...My msn pop up.... Chun wai told me the GE results out...Damned...So fast..Isn't it supposed to be 17th Jan...

Taking the bo chap Attitude, I checked the results since i'm already at the library using the computer....Phew...Got a 'C'!Not too bad...at least i passed...at least I clear all my GE requirements...

Yippeee!!!!

well...everything goes on normally till the end...Isn't the best saved for the last..looks like I kana the reverse....

Maybe I was the fool all the time....maybe I'm the dumb one...Haiz...is there a pt to mention any further... Since I alway believe everything happen for a reason...if all these shit have to happen..so be it..I'll take it..I wanna think NO MORE...

So tired....liao...beta go slp...still gotta sent my buddy off tml....

Yes i Did it!!!

Dear Diary,

Finally, I manage to get this website done...done something tt lookes pleasing to the eye...hahha....

At last now i can go study... finally can conc... I wasn't really able to conc...

Guess i'm too addited to this... or was it because i wanna get it done up fast so that i can show my buddies...To tell them "Hey guys, I can do something on my own...I don't always have to depend on you guy.,...haha..".

Though i modified through some templates, I made some efforts to make it nicer...beautify it futher...

Ok..promise...I'll go study now.....

Shall pen off now...

Shopping with Acez

Dear Diary,

10 mins...15mins...1 hr...2 hr... Finally he came...

We supposed to meet at 3.30pm at city hall to do shopping for his neccessity in France.... Then this "pig" claimed that he go stuck in the Bank...So i waited...I shopped ard....Raffles City till he arrives... And he finally arrives at 5 plus...

Nonetheless i was not angry..ha...Cuz ilove shopping alone...and of course i bought quite abit of stuff...n spent a bomb...Bought a Tee for my bro, bought some tops for my mummy and Daddy as well...then got myself a Shaw..Damn...I "hate" myself...Never can i resist to buying stuff...Haha... My Best fren Eileen will laugh her head off when she sees this...Ha...I'm jus to used to spending the way I had been in the past...I must get rid of this bad habit..

Anyway...back to the shopping...we went to Campus Corner...spend quite abit of time there...Acez spent few hundreds there to get things he need especially for winter...then we went to get his jeans...looked at some tops...he bought quite a bit of things...the last goes to the bed sheets...which were "huge"....he end up having to take a cab back...lolz...

Phew...A long day....rather it was a "short" shopping day for him..he managed to get most of his things in jus few hrs...but he kept complaining he's tired...Guys....Useless...

hahah....

What happen to my leg??!

Dear Diary,

O boy...it has been hurting for quite sometime...but today it seemed worst...
My leg i mean...

My left ankle has started to ache weeks back...nonetheless the pain was still bearable...i think it's the cold weather...but this morning...it was hell...When I was go climbing up the escalator, An acute pain shoot me right at the left knee other than my ankle. The pain caused me to lost my balance...I nearly fell but a kind soul gave me a hand. Thank Goodness, if not i would most probably tumble down the escalator.

The pain spell trouble for me...It come as a bad omen...I'm worried to be honest...Could it be all the side effects from all the sports, Touch games i played?!

I managed to make my way to meet Eileen to go campus together though i was kinda late. Eileen was very patient with me. Thank god for such a fren...


Damn tml i have to go shopping with my buddy....wonder if my leg would still gurt anot...

I hope it's jus a small problem..my leg...

Dear Diary,

Buddies....Friends forever!!!!!!

He's Leaving

Dear Diary,

Haiz...one of my dearest buddy is leaving for France. It didn't comes as a shocked...his flight has been postpone since Augest 2004...but still when he call me this morining...I felt a swam of sadness filling me ....Tears just swelled up..I couldn't sleep anymore...

First it was Cass then Hengyong, now him...All my buddies are leaving me one by one!!! Feel so lonely.... Even jimmy now having course in Malacca...haiz.... Maybe very soon, Eileen would migrate overseas with Clarence too...

Guess hengyong is right, I must grow up, i must learn to adapt to the changes...Guess i got so dependant of them...so used to be with them...that now they are going away for years..makes me feel empty...

Somehow i just don't know what to do without them..they have already been part of my life...

Why is God so cruel to make me go through such torture... I have always believed everything happends for a reason...but why do i always go through the toughest ruote...

I'll missed you alot my dear fren....

Hope we'll still keep in touch like now..

I'll wait for the day you return and Hengyong too and all four of us can go out again...

The Korean Drama *MODEL*

Dear Diary,

yes! I promise to tell you abt the Korean Drama called model. So here goes....

MODEL is a unique story of three individuals, and their struggles to make it big in the fashion industry. Han Jae Suk is a male model. He's poor and orphaned since childhood, and he has the manners of a street thug, but he's still hanging on, waiting for a chance to be successful. Kim Nam Joo is a fresh graduate from fashion school, who has both the talents to be a fashion designer and the grace to become a successful model. Jan Dong Gun is the estranged grandson of one of the biggest companies in Korea.
Kim and Han first met when Kim asked him to model her clothes for her school's fashion show. Both men fall in love with Kim at first sight, but she chooses Jan Dong Gun, and the two men become bitter rivals, both in love and in their chosen career. But for the next two years, Jan always puts work as first priority before love, and in his never-ending battle of wits to regain his rightful place in the family empire, he eventually loses Kim. Meanwhile, Han Jae Suk, who's been in love with her all this time, has become a successful model - in fact, THE hottest male model in the country. He stays by her side always, and eventually Kim realizes her love for Han.
Three years later, Kim Nam Joo becomes a successful fashion designer, and Jan Dong Gun is finally released from prison (after being arrested for one of his scams). He tries to win back Kim, but she and Han Jae Suk are very much together, and in fact, already planning their wedding. But, in a cruel twist of fate, Han Jae Suk dies in a tragic car accident.
Both Jan and Kim mourn the loss of Han Jae Suk - she for her lost love and when she realized she'd always taken for granted that he'll always be there for her no matter what, and him because he realized Han was his best friend all along. In the end, they put on a non-profit fashion show in memory of Han Jae Suk, where Jan wore the outfit Kim designed for Han, but in Kim's eyes and in her heart, there was only Han Jae Suk.
FAVORITE CHARACTER : Han Jae Suk
WHY? He's a good person and a good friend, even to the bitter enemy who "stole" the girl from him, and he's always looking after the other models under his wing. His love for Kim Nam Joo is pure and selfless, and he's always looking after her, trying to keep her from being hurt, and always tries to be there for her. He is finally rewarded when Kim Nam Joo is touched by his selfless devotion and finally falls in love with him, but sadly, fate intervened and cheated them out of a happy ending. But even to his death, Han Jae Suk thought of others before himself.
FAVORITE PARTS: Plenty! When he wrote "I Love You" on Kim's cast while she's asleep in the hospital; when he brought her home after she got drunk (when she was heartbroken over Jan Dong Gun); when he looked after her when she was temporarily blind; when he proposed (or rather, SHE did); the split-second before he died, when the image of Kim Nam Joo appeared in front of his eyes for the last time; when Kim Nam Joo saw his "ghost" and thought she had plenty to say to him, but in the end all she could say was "Thank You". Thank you for loving me. Thank you for everything you've done for me.
FAVORITE LINE: Incidentally, it was not spoken by any of the major cast, but by Han Jae Suk's sister, when she told Kim Nam Joo: "To marry the man who loves me the most, that is a woman's true happiness."

CAST

Han Jae Suk as Zhao Yuen Jun
Kim Nam Joo as Song Jing Lin
Jan Dong Gun as Li Zheng

Should watch the show...haha...I just love it...there are alot of great looking male & female models too..lolz...

Dear Diary,

Jang Dong Gun 

Dear Diary,

Kim Nan Joo 

Dear Diary,

Han Jue Suk 

Terrible day in school

Dear Diary,

Argh..it was a terrible day in school....it's just the first week of school...and everything didn't goes smoothly...


Woke up late this morning...Damn...Haven have my buffer time ...not even my important dose of Coffee...and a long day begins.....

Manage to get notes used last semester from my friends, then the stupid co-odinators...change all the lectureres, change all the notes..Damned!!! Are they all full or what... To think i studied in advanced the "old" notes few lectures in advance..now they change everything...

Then got to buy new notes...and cuz i have so many sets of new and old notes...Damned..I bought the same one twice..and the aunty wouldnt allow me to change..Argh...Sianz man.. And M44o, I borrow notes from eileen to Zap..damn...the Aunty printed a stack of "BLACK" notes for me wor...*Irritating*

Then weiliang kind enuff to help my pay and order M461 notes....but i wont be able to get it till the next day...O boy...Which means i cant copy the "tips" & notes from the lecture from Eileen..Eeuuu....

Why is everything not smooth...I'm having a bad headache oredi.... Must be the coffee..or was it the bad day....

ARGH.................

First Day in school

Dear Diary,

First day in school...It feels so good to be back in school...but not 'cuz I'm so "onz" about studying or anything like that..ha...but cuz it's great to see my frens again....

8.30am lecture... Gosh it was early...but everyone make it on time...It's been ages since i can attend class with my frens again...finally...most of my classes are the same as the rest.. This sense of happiness jus grow within me...

Yes I must work hard..very very hard...I must not give up!!! I know I can do it!!

God Please help me......

New Year

Dear Diary,

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!!!

Phew today's a biz day...or rather yesterday..as i'm writing this, it's 2nd January...

Just got home after the movie "kung Fu"...

Did my FYP till 5am..then work up early in the morning to make "agar agar" to bring to Nikk's hse.. Ha..hope it tasted alright...

Didnt get to meet "er Jie" and the rest caused I was late and get them to go ahead first. Hmm... had quite a bit of chats there...Talk to everyone except Cody i realised...Hmm.. Somehow I dont dare to talk to him..haha..after tt movie incident...Felt so guilty..haha...since he never talk to me..I beta keep quiet I guess...Even "er Jie" ark what happen..Hmm..hope our firendship is not spoilt over a movie...hmm..sounds so dumb huh>!

Anyway...Watched movie in Nikk's hse n played Bomber man..Cool...First time me playing..haha...So exciting that my heart almost "burst" open haha.... Too much for me man.. but i was fun nonethless...thanks to my dear Chairman Robin n my "Nikk Gor gor" who encourage me to play. .hehe...

Left early..went hme to get car to drive to Marina South for dinner with my Primary school friends... Yes u heard it right...It's Pimary School friends...It was all so fun... all the sweet memories in the childhood days jus floated back..it seemed all just happen yesterday... How i missed those days....

Well, I really enjoyed myself alot, the dinner, the chats, the archade, the pool game and the movie. Though I was dissapointed that most of the girls didnt turn up.. in fact I was the only gal during dinner with a whole bunch of guys...(guess I shld say it my pleasure hor wahahah....) nonetheless the dinner with the guys were great..Kenny was sure a joker...and his facincating and interesting racing car encounters...lolz
Fortunately Sharon and esther joined us later... :p

Saw people like Jian wen, Ryan and Zhang Jia Jie. Haha...People tt was no ard at the previous gathering..pple I hardy recognise them..trying hard to match thri faces to their names..haha..but it was all so great to see everyone...haha... Ooo...and the pool game...my "first" time playing...but it was all fun thanks to everyone's "help" especially my 2 masters Tian Hong & Kien Fee..haha...

then the great movie "kung Fu".. I sure had a great laugh...after that..and I sent Munyin, Kien Fee, BQ n Tian Hong home...

It was a long day isn't it...but it was certainly a great way to start a Brand New Year!!!

Dear Diary,

The gals...

Dear Diary,

The Steamboat at Marina South....with my Primary School Friends....

New year's eve

Dear Diary,

Boring boring.....what aboring new year's eve....
Everyone's out except me...My parents, my brother all went partying...
I'm the only one at home...at home doing my FYP! Argh...got to hand in my FYPs first draft tml morning as promised to prof..what to do...

My bro say i got no life!!!! Argh..*Roar*

O boy...now who dod i see... Acez...my buddy's online..haha...he oso stay at home..yippee..I got company lei.. haha!!

Fortunately, I stayed at home, manage to catch my last episode of my favourite Korean Drama "MODEL". It's such a loving show... I watched it 3 times!! yes the entore series 3 times. Tell a more abt the show ltr. I go do my FYP liao..

tata