Some Blessings and some encounters

Dear Diary,

Went for an Interview at the science centre...(tuesday)..

The 2 interviewers walked in...One of them called Ryan...looked familiar somehow..anyway that was how i felt at that point...yet i cant recall knowing him from anywhere...

Anyway, The 2 interviewers gave us an 'on the spot' test...there were altogether 6 candidates...all the other 5 were from NUS...i'm the only one from NTU...then 4 of them indians..and another chinese guy...I felt out of place and intimidated actually...the test is to pick up the equipment or the science 'toy' infront of us..and present to the 2 interviewers pretending that they are kids...gee...I heard the first guy presented..he was good...I had no idea what the toy in front of me was..and how it works...I was so stressed up...I never taught presenting was a problem till that moment...I never expect something i'm best at...becomes my 'barrier' now...I kinda freak out...

I'm the second...I was so stressed that i said...darn i'm very stress now...(Kaoz where got pple interview say that..I'm done for)...I felt so ashame of myself...
The Interviewers were nice they were like..."Relax, this is a informal interview so don't be stress"
I took a deep breath and give it a shot..I jus crap despite not knowing what the thing in from of me was and how it works...and of course...they arrowed my quite abit of qns...I felt i was arrowed...

At the end of it..I left...feeling damn lousy...I know it's unlikly for me to pass the interview...I was feeling lousy...so went for a swim...

At the Pool...I went all my frustration into energy..I keep swimming n swimming..till I exhaust my energy...Felt great...infact...I was very happy cuz for very long time..I seldom was able to pace a guy in his swimming...to think he puposely wait to test my speed...haha...either he's not that good or my stamina comes back le...or was it cuz I had too much 'energy' for the anger..hahah..Dunno...can almost win him..I very happy liao..ha...

The best part was...when was on my way home...i saw the miss call on my mobile...from the Singapore Science Centre...Yippee..which means I'm selected..hgahaha....not that the pay was good..but ok lar...I jus wanna stay out of home.,..and working will help me stay out of home and bring in income for me.ha..

Then i wonder...I damn heng ah..to be selected..ha...

went for some other interviews too...yesterday..one was at APP...it's at TOh Guan...Hmm..the interview was ok..the lady was quite ok..but the pple there give me weird looks like i'm alien..what's wrong..I wonder..

That was not the worst...the worst was that when the interview ended and I was waiting at the bus stop...it's quite deserted...darn...all those workers...keep disturbing my with their whistle and there are people who stopped their cars and offer to drive me out...This is crazy lor...ok maybe i shouldnt be so mean to those that offer me a lift...but..still...I'm at bus-stop not as if i'm waiting at a deserted road side...Not that i'm pretty and not that i'm dressed seductively...I was merely wearing a normal round neck black top with sleeve and a knee length black skirt...those workers either are having eye problem or they are SICK....tink probably there are hardly any gals ard that area...Fortunately in the company itself is not like that but Cant imagine if I get admitted there...with those sick pple ard that estate...*Shiver*

ok then in the night..my buddy called me..My Buddy Acez...whom i had not spoken for ages and ages..or at least it seemed ages to me....Guess he was biz in France...n he probably heard of what happen from Hy or some of them...which is why he prompt me chat...and even called me on my mobile all the way from France...Didnt want to answer at first cuz I didnt wanna let him hear me cry...i knew i would break down...and I didnt wan him to worry...jus like when HY called..but he insisted..I just dunno hw to reject my buddies...i picked up...

It was Joy hearing his always so cheerful voices again...There's always life in his voice..always so positive...always making me laugh...yes..that's my buddy...I was extremely happy...felt like time had flew back to the 'old' days...as if he was in Singapore....many times during the conversation...my tears jus rolled down...I dont cry in front of others...yet in front of them...my buddies...I jus cant control..maybe because..i'm very comfortable with them...And i much care less abt any 'image'...ha...and i know they wont mind..ha..or maybe they do...lolz...

Talked till about 4.30 am which is 10.30 in France...darn/....muz have cost him a bomb for talking to long...Felt bad...yet I appreciated alot...though i was oredi not at my darkest moment..but their call is everything that matters...it jus gave me the moltivation to moved on...Acez gave me some advice...ok..i'll be good girl and listen...

Didnt really asked abt him...hope he is doing alright...I was so thankful to have all 3 of them...Miss them So So much...

Ooo...tink this article a bit too long le..ha..Acez jus complained my blog too wordy..ha...he says he's slow reader..lolz...but still make effort to read..touch sia...

THANKS Acez, HengYong and Jimmy...Other than Thanks I really dunno how to express my gratitude...it's u guys that makes the dark tunnel a litter brighter....