Enlightenment

Dear Diary,

Done alot of things this week...

Jason brought me for some "Boxing" session...had a great relieving of pressure....I punched the bag really hard...my fist hurts...the pain on the hand was nothing compared to that in the heart...but i feel good after that...

Then went to the gym the following day with Diana...My run longer than usual...My knee i realised dun hurt that much....more importantly..I was able to run longer and at a faster speed cuz i manage to phsyco my brain...I keep telling myself I CAN DO IT...DONT GIVE UP....It works..It suddenly enlighten me..some sort...Despite my failing knee...I managed to perservere...

I knew if i dun give up...I can succeed one day too...So many pple have confidence in me...So i cant let them down...

Then the follwoing day (friday) went to Company Charlet at downtown east...Cuz we went to help in the NTUC family open hse at expo...a week oso so earlier..Saw Pon sak there...who's now a DJ at FM100.3... I was quite reluctant to go actually..but haiz...I dun wanna make everyone worry....so i guess...I shld wear my smiling face again and attend the function...Had some chats with the rest...mainly my campus fren whom we went together for the work...as well as one of the NTUC media work people...cant rem his name...tink it's Mike or sth...some of the conversations kinda enlighten me...

Then took a cab down to the nightclub at East coast (Dynasty) to drive me parents home..end up waiting there for them till...3am...saw alot of things there....it's sort of eye opening...yet at one point of time.. was enlightened...how the ladys worked so hard....they are not afraid of failure...Why shld I...I mean...What i've gone through was not as bad as them...I talked to them and realised quite a number of them are educated...what a pity...they have to degrade themselves..most are forced by circumstaces...

Saw the cruelty of the world...how the rich can bully the poor...how the rich rules...how MAN in asia still dominates....Saw how life is NEVER Fair...It never will be equal no matter what...
I felt unjustice...I felt a gush to prove myself one day...Time is all i need...