Rough week

Dear Diary,

This is kind of a rough week for me.. Lady luck apparently went on leave and everythings seems to be out of hand... Endless things to do, yet everything went against me...from work to friendship... Every single things appears to be torn in the eye... every little things pissed me off..

Maybe it's myself too.. I don't know.. Blame it on the PMS then...Hmm.. not that it's any time near...

I am wondering what happen to me...

I feel so exhausted suddenly..so tired of everything..

Just feel like giving up....

What's wrong...

Then again after a tough week, with all the people pissing me off... today finally I had a good laugh hanging out with wen, XY, Ben n Pat. At least I tried to... I try to make myself happy... didn't want to meet up initially today but I thought maybe it's a good idea afterall to cheer myself up.. It's a new month, I must start afresh...

Anyway, I went. It's not too bad afterall. I tried to make myself very happy, laughing off at the simplest joke. I think wen find it funny why I was laughing so much... Maybe I try too hard to laugh.. How fake...Since when I have promoted to grade 1 plastic queen...

But all the laughing hard kinda relief me a little... though I still get a little moody... On my way back, I was pondering hard... reflecting on my behaviour....

Then just like lighting striking on the head, something strike me. I guess it was my fren's unhappy incident that leaves me moody... It's not their arriage.. but more of.. it makes me pissed that people around me are not treasuring what they are having now.My fren pissed me cuz they don't appreciate the kindess I have shown and gave me attitude; my collegues pissed me when I worked hard to organise what they asked for and they give me bloody excuse and shit to tell me how it sucks when they didn't even try. It breaks my heart to see people not appreciating what they are having now. Why aren't they treasuring it like a gem? I knew the pain cuz I lost 2 gems of my life....

I knew why I am unhappy now... haiz yet I can't make myself happy thinking of it.. no wonder my fren didn't want to reveal his damage marriage to me...

Wish I could do something for him... As much as I pray hard that there is still hope for the marriage, I am worried that things doesn't look too optimistic...

Reveal this 'secret' today... it's not that much of a secret, but I then again it's not sth glam tt ought to be published... Nonetheless, I told them in the intention that they could make a little effort to cheer him out, at least keep him occupied and not think of the unhappiness. Trust that they would do it tactfully and not reveal the fact. It was the first time I heard of him crying...It breaks my heart to see my best fren so upset and I can only view helplessly. Guess I am too emotional.

Haiz... Hope he would get over things soon... Best if there's chance to patch up even if it's only 0.0001%...

Darn.. Still no mood for anything... just feel kinda exhausted... maybe more like disgusted at the ugly world, utterly disappointed at it...

Nonetheless, felt bad that I wasn't good company for Wen and the rest... though they were wonderful company, and I really appreciate them. They are simply wonderful frenz... and I love all of them so dearly... well...guess me not joining them for the movie was a good thing.. at least on my way back alone, I got enlightened....

Cool... Now I got to get myself ashed up and prepare for bed... got to go island for work tml...
Before i go some shots...

The Xmas tree at Cathay.. when you are not in the form.. soemhow, the photos didn't look right...

Without the flash... nicer in colour.. hmm.. but it got kinda blur...

From a differnt angle... Guess this is the best shot... nevermind, not to standard... I give up...it's just not the day for all this...

But I like the effect I added to the photo though...


Ok let's try outdoor shot...Tsk tsk.. not too good.. argh.. this is frustrating..

Alright. this is the best... thank god there's nice clouds at sunset timing... the sky is usually pretty at this time...No more photos for today.... till I get into form.. hang in there...There are more photos in XY's camera, shall wait for her to load.. but I am not really in any form for photos today... so bet i look pretty bad in them... till I review them, I may not post it if it's too unsightly.. till i post again Tata..