His Anniversary

Dear Diary,

Days clicked by... somehow another year seems to have fly past already... the day seem to be approahing again... how time slipped past... it been 6 years in a wink of an eye... but the feeling still appears raw like yesterday... The pain that not many have gone through... it had not ease a least bit..

Fresh in the mind was the argument of yesterday... the fight.. that if time could have gone back... a fight that no one wished to see.. if it haven't occur, the accident wouldn't have happen, the tragedy wouldn't have result... he wouldn't have left..

How guilty the feeling is... Deep down buried was the guilt, the pain that was not once mentioned to others... it was always harder for the living to take the pain... Many things have changed now... but the feeling and pain remains... it's hard to accept anyone else... despite the happy masked put on, the scar within would never be heal... the heart is still bleeding... and no one understand...

if there's a choice for everything to re-start...

He makes you the murderer... though he was not killed by you but it was you that he was killed...the scene of him lying motionless on the road appears at the shut of the eyes... blood covered him... mouth slighly ajar as if he has unfinished words to say... clinch in his hand were the token of love...

Wake up... please... why didn't he wake up... how could he... how could he leave just like that... how can he forget all his promises made... how can he leave all his loved ones behind.. how can he be so heartless to let his love bear all the pain and torture alone..

No one seems to remember it anymore.... no one seems to remember him anymore... or maybe no one wanna rack up the pain anymore... had he known the pain his love had to go through, had he known the hatred his love got to bear from his family, would he still have left...

Days to his annioversary... and only blessing can be sent from far away...

With love...