I am not a good teacher or are my students simply dumb

Dear Diary,

I am asked to conduct some training for the new comers when I am new comers myself ha.. kinda ridiculous...but ya... it ought to be a compliment to me... hehe.. 3 weeks more experienced and I am a senior... =p

I guess I have to admit shamelessly that I am a fast learner. Especially it's just some monkey see money do scope I think... it's brainless.. merely co-ordinating, learning how to use the system communicate with the customer. What's so difficult?!!!

What I thought was a compliment was actually a night mare...Of course my fellow collegues each have one new girl attached... though some are ok... mine was not the worst case... but in general this batch of new comers SUCKS...

It took me only few days to pick up... but it's been weeks... and the gals are still unable to cope. Worst the leader is not helping ie. making things worst by not wanting me to pass them the work to practice.

'Ling, they are having trouble learning and picking up, pals don't give them any thing to do let them focus on their learning on the system'

O my god... If u simply look at your notes and learn without practicing, you still wont be able to apply and know how to use, you will still forget the many code that you got to key, and the many various steps you got to do. There maybe quite a number of steps and procedures but they are simple just tedious. So what's wrong?

I think my student's attitude is very wrong. AS new comers, shouldn't one be more pro-active?

They are not keen in learning... Having the 'bo CHap' attitude! Hello... ATTITUDE is only meant to be 100% not 0.1%... Fuck it.. Don't use my pen name if you are not up to it...The company don't employ you to laze ard and add work load to your fellow collegues who are working hard...

If I merely finish conducting my lessons and asked you to hands on with me guiding you... How the hell can you tell me you 'DOn't Know'!! It may be a simple 2 words but there's 2 meaning behind it, either you are saying me, your trainer is LOUSY or you are not paying attention!!!

Goodness.. I really feel like giving up on you girls... Till know I have to do double work checking.. Worst, you girls comng to ask me simple questions that I have been repeatedly reminding you. Do you not have any common sense?? Didn't you just write down everything? Refer to your bloody hell notes!!! Why the hell do anyone of you write down the notes and not refer? Argh... I am running out of paitience... SOmeone tell me, whatI should do? I have no idea how to coach the girls... now that they are adding on to my load of work that I feel so breathless sometimes.. OT OT and more OT...