A realistic Word

Dear Diary,

The world is realistic... Far too realistic... Or maybe it's only in Singapore...

So cruel that it kills and shatter my perfect world... My optimistic mentality...

I just gradually grew to understand how looks and money is the most important thing.

If you are not pretty like me, but your friends says it's ok, "you just need a kind heart, as long as you remain kind & nice you would be the most beautiful person... "

Let me tell you, it's not true. Your friends are merely too kind to you, they were merely trying to comfort you. You don;t get it? Well the underlying message is, if you are kind, the BLIND would find you beautiful, but hello in the world 99.9% of the population are not blind! So go bang your head on the wall and die!

There are many times over interviews and I overheard them saying, "Hey I think we need someone with better appearance! Is this the best the agency can give?"

I had been wondering why there are many people like me that can't get a job based on my many years of working experience & exposure... Compare to many other fresh graduates, I strongly believe we don't lose out to any of them but why why????

I finally realized...Other than luck, it's looks afterall... It's the shortcut to lots of things... Good looking people always get their way through... haiz... But we cant help it if we look like this... We try to make ourselves presentable liao... But this is the best what... So what else can we do?? Do cosmetic surgery?

Then you need money... Which is why money is the next important thing..

Money give you power! If you are ugly like me, then you need money, so that you can do some plastic surgery. Even if you don't, with the money, everyone would come sucking you like a leech! It's a fact, I seen and experience so much of all these nonsense...

If you ask the pageant people what they want money or peace... They wld say 'World Peace'
For goodness sake, if there's no money where got world peace... Without money cannot even satisfy basic needs these days, got peace for what, peace liao oso not happy.

The whole world tells me, nah it's not true... Come on face it... You with good looks or money, asked yourself... Compare to all the rest... Don't you always get the express way to things? The world is realistic! This had been the case since centuries back.... It's a fact... In the past at least a dumb piece of paper can bring you somewhere, but now there are so many graduates down the streets, so what else they look for? Appearance right... God damnit!

I had always believe EVERYTHING HAPPEN FOR A REASON! But now I'm starting to doubt my own principles and beliefs... God is never fair... He makes the millions of poor little things in the 3rd world starve to death no matter how hard they try, how much effort they put in, while on the other side, some lucky things just get what they want with an out-stretched arm... WTF!

Stop asking me to not compare... That's because you are living in a better off scenario... Think if you are in others shoe! I know I'm not the worst off, yes there are many more worst off, but stop consoling yourself... Since when your teacher taught you to compare to the people with lousier grades!

I don't see the light, the meaning of humans living on... The earth is round but the world is not. Sometimes, death is not as scary as one thought... I wonder why those that are dying on the bed still struggle to live on... why don't they let things come...Death is not as scary, it might be a release to them, it might meant an open door in the heaven.

Ok enough of the rattling, irregardless how realistic and cruel the world is, life goes on...Guess I just have to go via the hard way, go beg for money... If you see me down the streets, kindly donate some money haha... afterall I'm a high class beggar k, at least I'm not the ugliest and I got a degree can! =p