Sorrie & I Love you

Dear Diary,

Looking at all the baby photos, you must be wondering, what the hell am i doing?? haha... Don;t be mistaken, I have no wish to have a baby yet hohoho...

I was having a tough period recently, and that goes to say i'm feeling kinda emotionally unstable...ha..ya what's new?? lol...

Had lots of quarrels, my bad temper pissed everyone off...

However, someone brings reality back to me again...In fact on one of the blading sessions, i met jeril and cuz i was jus in a foul mood i pissed Jeril off.... and he scolded me...
"For goodness sake, stop bitching... U need to grow up dear, you have not changed a single bit.. bla bla bla" Those are the exact words.... I was shocked and hurt! He never used to shout at me like this before... i drove home without second thought... I cired... yet at the same time after some reflection, i know he was right...very right...

I am quite a spoilt brat... too spoilt... i wanna everyone to treat me like a little princess, the way i was treated at home... I jus wan everything to go my way, and when i don't i just simple get pissed off and frustrated...
Jeril was right...all right... No one would have probably known me beta than he does i guess... I know he cared... and i'm so sorry for all the hurting words nad actions i had done recently to the people around me..to everyone that loved me...

I was looking at the baby photos...how i wished i am a baby now... the innocent sweet little thing... with no worries no troubles... where everyday is filled with happiness... ya..

ZX was right, there's no turning back and i shld look forward... and i will... drove to KL...to be apart from the world..out of touch with everyone... I guess it helps.. Feeling alot beta as i'm writing this post... Maybe i'll be back soon... but i'm enjoying the peacefulness so much now...ha...

Jus wanna take this chance to apologised to all my dearest frenz whom i have hurt with my childish behaviour, to Jeril i'm sorry and thanks.. to my favourite junior ZX who was there willingly as my punching bag, and being there to tolerate all my nagging, complains and grumbling in silence...To my brothers... I'm sorrie... I dunno what's wrong with me, i'll change for the better and i know god will help me..I love all of you dearly..