Lost

Dear Diary,

Have been typing my resume...and cover letter....sending them out...waiting for calls..

Felt Lost.... Have always got great plans, great aimbition...but now when i reach this time..I Dunno wat i wanna really do...I cant decide how i shld go..Rather...I have in mind wat i wanna be eventually...I wanna start my biz...wanna do design...do sth tt's of my interest... yet i need to work to get experience...to get capital..to have connections...I'm a people person..wanna find a job that's people related work yet jobs that i really caught my eyes at first sight, i cant apply cuz i don't meet their requirement...cuz i'm holding an engineering degree..

Why did i go to engine...cuz i love science..but after the 4 torturing years ...I was tired and turn off..I still love science i guess...but not so much of engineering. NTU makes me tired i guess...or ore like the system here makes me wanna escape...and some of the tutors..i don't want to be like them heartless and coldblooded....It makes me tink is it becaused they have been facing all this lifeless machines tt makes them so cold...

I'm not a least bit worried abt been a fresh graduate and having not enough experience...cuz i have lots of working experience...Haiz...nonetheless i have sent out quite afew CVs...mainly Management trainee jobs and customer service... There are lots of pple tt question me...Well, I jus wanna find a P-R job...n i tink those with Management trainee programs are good since i wanna start my own biz..

But my dear brother actually didnt quite support my thinking...watever..i do wat i like..I'm not successful yet...so i'll swallow my pride now till the day i reach the top....we shall see...